Fear during Meditation
Spoken by Supreme Master Ching Hai
Costa Rica, May 31, 1991
(Originally in English)
Q: When I saw the light, the light was very big; then I stopped, and said, "Not yet, not yet," and I came back.
M: (Master says lovingly) Stupid, you will come back in time, don't resist. Just take yourself up for a while and bring yourself back again. If you resist, you'll never go up.
Q: I didn't want to go to You. I was very afraid.
M: You should go high and come back. It takes only a few minutes or half an hour to come back again. But everyone's afraid like that. They want to go to heaven, but they say, "Oh, no, no, I'm afraid there's nothing there." They are afraid to die. And when the Light takes them up, they say, "No, no, no, not yet! I am not a saint." You never know if you will die tomorrow and then will have no chance. We always have the big ego to resist the Master's instructions and help, and that makes our progress very slow. It is true that if you always let go, you will become a saint in no time. When you go with the Light or Sound, you will come back. You'll die only for a little while.
Q: But I don't have that level of elevation.
M: It's your ego that is talking. How do you know better than I do? If the Master thinks you are not worthy, then the Master will not take you. Let your inner Master decide. Why argue? If you think a Master is good for you, then you just have to listen.