I love writing very much and regard it as my highest ideal. When I first began writing, I was deeply influenced by the genius painter Vincent Van Gogh, an artist of paramount talent to me. My heart then fell into a state of desperation and darkness. Writing was the eternal star that lit up my life, and I considered it a boat that ferried me across the ocean of life. As I didn't know when my life would end, I wrote incessantly to resist the coming of death.
My Wife's Brother Was The Harbinger
One summer several years ago, my wife's brother came to visit me. He said, "Meditation may benefit your writing and thinking, or even change the way you see the world. Practice the Quan Yin Method!" He also gave me a photo of Master and the Key of Immediate Enlightenment sample booklet.
Master's book solved many of the doubts that I had about the world, and opened a window for me to understand the world and the universe. The light of wisdom penetrated my gloomy heart. I was really grateful to the Creator for giving me the chance to know Supreme Master Ching Hai and the Quan Yin Method.
I was determined to become a vegetarian, change my life, and offer myself to the great power that creates the world. I was certain that Supreme Master Ching Hai was the greatest example of wisdom.
Finally, the long awaited initiation came. The intense longing for the Truth made me feel extremely grateful for this particular moment. However, my expectations of having a miraculous experience at the initiation made it hard for me to maintain an ordinary mind. I experienced nothing after the initiation, and was feeling very lost. As so many people described the visions and inner sounds that they perceived, I thought that it must be my own problem; perhaps I was not concentrated enough.
After going home, everything remained the same. All I could do was keep the precepts, and meditate in vain. I began to waver. Even my wife, who was initiated with me, also wanted to give up. Then, my wife's brother came. He seemed to have read our minds. He encouraged us to persist, and helped us recover our faith. That night he meditated with us.
The Soul Goes Up
I went to sleep after the meditation. Shortly after lying down, I felt an energy bursting out from my body similar to the launching of a rocket. An enormous thrust made my spiritual body soar. Only then did I realize that humans really have an incredible spiritual body besides the physical one. I kept soaring upwards through the void, and I truly felt the cool air current when the spiritual body travels in space. I could see stars flowing past my sides. When I looked down to my unconscious physical body from high above, I was a little worried. Just as this thought emerged, I began to descend and returned to my physical body instantly. As if revived from death, the body was again conscious. This experience was really wonderful, and it also cleared up all my confusion.
Since then, all sorts of experiences, good and bad, have come to me according to the level of diligence of my meditation, and my observance of the precepts. Nonetheless, all of them indicate the existence of a spiritual world. I have been under Master's protection and guidance right from the moment I decided to practice. Life is really incredible. Spiritual realization let me experience a world that really exists, so I don't have to cling on to the intellectual world of books.