Every evening students come to the Center to learn English and Chinese. One day, when passing by the classroom, I overheard the students singing loudly: "A pedicab ran fast, and an old lady rode on it. The asking fare was fifty cents, but she insisted on paying one dollar - wasn't it strange?"
This was a children's rhyme I used to sing when I was young. Before coming to Cambodia I had never seen a pedicab in real life. The first time I sat on one here, instead of leisurely enjoying the gentle breeze, I felt extremely uneasy. I watched the man who was struggling to pedal the pedicab under the scorching sun; the sweat was running all over his body and his clothes were completely soaked. I was so embarrassed and did not know what I should do. I even wanted to say to the man, "Please let me pedal the cab." But looking at the goods laid in the pedicab, I thought I would hardly be able to ride the bicycle by myself with a person, so how could I help him?
Sitting in the pedicab, I finally understood the feeling of the old lady and why she insisted on paying one dollar when the asking fare was only fifty cents. It was all due to her compassion and appreciation. To naturally incorporate Master's teachings in this situation, whatever we do is for ourselves. If we don't learn the lessons of caring and loving, we will always be struggling with our conscience.
Master often gives us opportunities to discover our own weaknesses through working. Through the work, we discover that the almighty Master has quietly arranged everything. As long as we do our best, do not get nervous or worry too much, then everything will be carried out naturally and smoothly.
After initiation, I did not want to mix with people. Often I came and went alone and avoided working in a busy environment. Those solitary days were sort of carefree. Whenever people asked me why I didn't want to find a job in a big company, I could not find a proper excuse to give. I did not know of what I was afraid. Later on I had a chance to work for Master -- the nature of the work that I had to do was very similar to what I had tried to avoid in the past. I appreciate Master's loving arrangement -- I am finally no longer afraid of working together with many people. Since overcoming this obstacle, I have become confident and positive.
After respectfully reading Master's article 'The True Master Only Cares About Your Liberation!' I, your humble disciple, now deeply appreciate that if there is doubt, fear in one's mind, it will be very difficult to attain real happiness. Thank You, Master, for giving me opportunities to learn and accompanying me through one obstacle after another.