To Be Alone Is A Rare Privilege
 
 So just now you asked me to marry. I don't think it's a good idea, but I'll try. (Laughter) I'll try again. Don't worry about it. Whatever you suggest, I'll try it. Or else I won't know if it's good or not. Then I can tell you. It's really not a good idea. I'm just too independent; I'm too busy.

 
 I'm too independent in my thinking. I'm really deep in my thinking, most of the time. I do things, but I do them dividedly, like I do this thing here, and I think of some other things there. At the same time, I have to think of many things. Men, or spouses, they don't like that. Even women, you want your partner all for yourself, your very self, very great self. You don't like that.

 
 I'm too busy. Even before I was busy, I was always found something to do, something more useful for other people. I don't know. Maybe I was born that way. Maybe I'm supposed to be that way. I can't change it. It's not a good idea to get married. Can I try again? (Master and all laugh)

 
 Yes, a lot of us need to have company, but a lot of us don't. To have company is fun, very nice, and you feel comfortable, you feel not so lonely. But then you have a lot of responsibility for this and that person. They tend to imagine a lot of things. Sometimes you're just under pressure and you say something; and you don't mean anything by it, you don't mean anything bad, but they think it's bad. They imagine it's bad, and then they make a lot of trouble for you. They might not say anything, but their faces are very long, and the atmosphere is very thick, you can cut it with a knife. You just feel choked, and you can't even argue, because there's nothing to argue about, there's not even any reason to fight with each other or to argue verbally. There's nothing. But you just can't breathe. You haven't had this experience? (Audience: Yes) So, let me tell you. If you go it alone; you go it alone, and if you have company, you have company. There's no need to try to change things too much. Take it as it is. When you can find company, enjoy it. When you cannot, it's a privilege to be alone, because company you can always find. Really, it's very easy. People are always around us. It's very difficult to be alone. If God happens to make you to be alone like me, then thank Hirm. It's a privilege. It's a rare, rare opportunity to be yourself and to go inside and have a look at what you have inside, until nothing's left. You feel free. But then you have to do a lot of things that you hate. Now I hate domestic stuff. I don't really hate it; it's just that you don't have the desire to do that anymore. It's something you grow out of. Like when you were young, you liked toys. When you grow up, you're not satisfied with toys anymore. It's the same with me. I'm not satisfied with domestic work anymore. But it's okay. I try to organize.

 
Don't Dream That More Helpers Are Better
 
 Sometimes we dream, we think, "If we had ten more persons helping, wouldn't it be nicer?" But it wouldn't. It has some other problems. Like in my house, or the place where I stay, if I stay alone, I have to do a lot of things. I have to clean the house, I have to wash, I have to pay the bills, I have to go and collect and send the mail. Do everything alone, just like you do at home. If I have a maid or an attendant, they do this for me; but then I also don't have privacy. I have to take care of them, too. Then they ask me things and they demand my attention. They don't feel satisfied being neglected. When I'm busy or something like that, I find their faces are longer than usual. (Laughter) When I'm under pressure and I answer questions shorter than normal, then I find their faces get longer. The shorter my answer, the longer their faces, for example. (Laughter) Then that doesn't digest quickly. It takes half a day, or a day or so to calm down the situation, and then everything is peaceful and quiet until the next thing happens. They make a mess or something, and then we have trouble again, just like in your marriages.